Toni Thrash Not An Afterthought


I was sitting in church not long ago when my Pastor said, “Your prayers might not be answered here on earth, but you might just be the answer to someone else’s prayer.”

The Israelites were looking for an answer to their prayer. They didn’t expect how it would come.

David turned out to be the miracle the Israelites were looking for. He just didn’t know it. (I love this because if he had known, he probably would have blown his first assignment) For that matter, they didn’t know it either. They were confident Saul was their answer.

David was confident in what his God was capable of doing. Regardless, of what happened in his life.

As you know, David slew Goliath with a stone.

Miracle accomplished. Not the way the Israelites had envisioned.  But how God wanted it to play out.

Let me ask you a question… What if David’s stone had missed?

What would Goliath have done?

What would David had done?

Do you think Saul and David would have had a huddle to discuss his errant throw? Discuss what to do now?

Think Goliath would have stood there and laughed until he couldn’t breathe?

Would the Israelites turn tail and run? They were so good at this. Running.

Let me ask this question: Have you ever gotten to the place where there was nothing left for you to do and you felt like a failure?

You. had. literally. done. all. you. knew. to. do. 

You prayed. You sought counseling. You prayed. You cried. You got angry. You lost hope.

Has someone told you: you needed to have more faith, pray harder, fight for it, or stay?  (their heart was in the right place)

Nothing you did was the miracle you had been praying for!

My Pastor said this in his message this past weekend:

“Have you ever had to regroup after your stone missed?”  

It was so startling to me I literally yelled out loud during the message.

  • You went to counseling/your marriage ended in divorce
  • you talked to your boss/you were let go
  • You got the “help” your child needed/they weren’t healed and the worst fear you had became real
  • you got financial counseling/still had to declare bankruptcy
  • you prayed and prayed for that miracle/ it just wasn’t answered the way you thought it would.

Please understand, I’m writing from a complete place of weakness and vulnerability. 

Been there. Done that. All of it. Didn’t get the t-shirt. Just wounds and scars.

I was driving the other night when I asked my friend this question, “Libs, is it possible that all I’ve gone through is my miracle I prayed for?

I texted my friend Holly this morning. Posed this same question to her.

Told her I wanted her to look at it from all angles and to process through it before she answered.

A few hours went by. Here’s her response:

Listen to Blessings by Laura Story.

Exact premise.

Here are some of the words to the song;

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace

Comfort for family, protection while we sleep

We pray for healing, for prosperity

We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while You hear each spoken need

Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears?

What if a thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this life

Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear

We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea

And long that we’d have faith to believe

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win

We know that pain reminds this heart

That this is not, this is not our home

It’s not our home

What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst

This world can’t satisfy?

And what if trials of this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are Your mercies in disguise?

My friend Bonnie said these words to me in a text just this afternoon, “He sees around corners.”   Oh. My. Word.

He doesn’t have a blind spot.

Listen, I’m not jumping up and down for joy that I went through what I went through. But, when I get to the other side of it, will I recognize God’s hand in all of it? Will I see how He moved me from there to here? I’m beginning to see a hint of it.

What is it you’ve gone through that is/was your greatest heartbreak? It will take time for you to see. This life is hard. But my prayer for you is that you will begin to see hope that God saw what was coming. But most importantly, you will see Him as your miracle regardless of where you find yourself today.

I would love to hear your story. To know what your miracle is. Even when it didn’t seem like one at the start.


6 thoughts on “MY STONE MISSED

  1. “But, when I get to the other side of it, will I recognize God’s hand in all of it? Will I see how He moved me from there to here? I’m beginning to see a hint of it.”
    Taking time to seek the answer to these two questions is so pivotal, so essential to living a life of trust and hope that they cannot be ignored! In living 60+ years I’ve seen over and over if you skip this part of the process you will wither, and miss God’s kindness and redemption. It doesn’t work out the way we want more than I’d like to admit. That’s when my character gets shaped: through hardships, battles, and disappointment. Slaying Goliath got David 17 years of running from Saul! But it was God’s Rulership Training School. We want Success at Every Turn Academy, but sadly that doesn’t give us what it takes to stand when the winds blow and others need to hear our testimony, because this life can be hard- didn’t Jesus say that?
    What you’ve expressed here Toni is so very important and real. Thank you.

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  2. Oh my gosh. I don’t even know what to say except YES!!!!!!!!!! So true and so real. The journey to see the beginning of the miracle can be the darkest and longest and most painful time. A time where we cannot possibly imagine things getting worse and then they do. And then one day you are looking back on it, and you are thankful. Not thankful the bad happened, but thankful you serve a God who has used every single bit of it to make you the person you are today. Love this. Thank you!

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    1. Thank you. Honestly, was scared to post it. But it was imperative for me to get it out. I appreciate your thoughts! I love everything you have written. Today’s is great. I needed it yesterday! HA! But will take it today and remember to slow down in my head. Thank you for sharing this!


  3. Love this and that song is one I sing all the time! Would love to share my story with you some day. When I was at my lowest, someone told me that we see our life like the bottom of a huge tapestry, full of knots and threads that don’t make sense. God sees it from the top where it is a beautiful work of art.


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