IMG_1307When I was in 7th grade, I was having trouble seeing. Especially out of my left eye. It was blurry.  Off to the eye doctor I went. Sure enough, I was near-sighted and had astigmatism in that eye. Right eye was fine.  So I literally wore one contact for years. Eventually the right eye started to go and then I became a normal 2 contact person.

About the age of 35, I went in for a routine eye exam.

The doctor told me my corneas were warped.  I don’t know about you, but that doesn’t sound good.  I decided to see a specialist.  It wasn’t a great prognosis.

I had keratoconus.  A degeneration of the corneas in my eyes. Hence, the warped corneas.  My doctor then told me at some point you will have to have a cornea transplant. What? There was no cure at the time. Surgery wasn’t an option. So, I was fitted with gas permeable lenses. (That’s fine if you want to feel like you have glass in your eye all the time.) Uncomfortable to say the least. But, it cleared my blurry vision.

Fast forward to this past Wednesday night.

I was sitting in Bible Study. We’ve just started a new one on Malachi. We watched the video and were discussing the group questions.

The author in the video said when we misinterpret God’s Word it creates blurry vision. The result is: damage. Of all kinds.

I’m wondering what kind of damage has been done to you?

What’s been said to blur your vision? 

Who’s done something to you to cause you to not see clearly?

I’m wondering if you have ever been looked at with blurry vision?

Has someone misinterpreted you or a decision you have made?  Has someone judged you for something that simply isn’t true? They have no idea what it was like behind the facade of you having it all together.

What I’ve come to understand is people judge because they don’t know or are too afraid to ask. Really.

Does that blurry vision seep into your life and cause you to be defensive or does it counter with a love that goes beyond rational? (My good friend, Bob Goff has something to say about this. Bob doesn’t actually know me. but someday, I hope to get the chance to thank him for writing the book, Love Does. Anyway, Bob says, “ Love sometimes borders on the irrational.”Translation: Love isn’t blurry. At all. )

My friend, was sitting in the floor as we were discussing blurry vision. She was recalling her younger years when she felt far from God. I had to write down what she said next. It was painful hearing it. Can’t imagine how it actually felt for her.  I just knew in that moment she was being real.

Here’s what she said, “I was angry with the Christians who turned Him (Jesus) into someone He wasn’t supposed to be.”

Dang. Shut up. Really?

We do this.

We do this with each other. We listen to people give their false perceptions of what they believe to be true. We let them cast us into  a sea of blurriness.

People get robbed by other people’s perceptions. Robbed of their emotional, mental, and spiritual health because of warped vision. Spiritual blurriness.  It robs us of our worth from the only One who gives it.

Then that blurriness transposes to Jesus.  We start to believe that what they say and the way they act is how Jesus really is.  Or  people watch us and if we are not careful we blurry their vision of who Jesus actually is.

We are the ones who need to exemplify clear vision.

We have Jesus…for crying out loud!!!!

There’s nothing clearer than Him. But we’ve made Him into all these rules and regulations and unapproachable because our sin is TOO bad and our lenses are not clear. It’s you looking through my glasses and not being able to see a thing. BLURRY!!!

The moment she said it, I could feel her pain. It was so unnecessary to walk through believing Him to be someone He wasn’t. I know God has used this in her life to grow her to the point of where she is now. Still, unnecessary.

I know He is just and I know I must face Him and answer all the questions of what I’ve done here on this earth, but the one thing I want to show others and myself(because I can still go there) is He loves you. Me. The bottom line of everything; He loves.

The only way to see clearly is to read His Word. It will clear any blurriness you might have. Ask Him to show you clearly. He will.

I want us to see Him clearly for who HE is and not some warped or blurred figure someone has painted Him to be. He deserves the chance for you to see Him clearly. Once you do, it will be crystal clear.

My responsibility is to live my life with an irrational love that is seen through untainted lenses.

Be the lens of clarity for everyone you meet.


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